Wow what a year. It's been... crazy to say the least.
I hope everyone enjoyed their year! <3 My year was... FULL of ups and downs.
well, when 2021 started, I was in a dark place mentally. It was a mix of a lot that was holding me down, mentally and emotionally. From certain anniversaries passing from traumatic experiences, to covid, to learning how to set boundaries, it was a lot to deal with.
I started therapy and taking medication for my mental wellbeing, and though there have been some ups and downs, overall I feel so in control of my own emotions compared to before. Therapy has honestly saved me. That in itself to me, is a highlight of the year.
I got a lot more active and confident in the Newgrounds community though, and have met a lot of cool people! Connecting to others online helped me a lot, especially meeting other creatives! It's so inspiring and makes me want to work as hard as you all! <3 Newgrounds is a special place that really is "Everything, by Everyone". It's a place that really reignited my passion again for everything creative!
One of the biggest highlights of the year for me was the Newgrounds Summer Festival! Stanpai and LilSpook organized and held the whole thing! It was amazing, and the moment they contacted me to not only help as staff but also to let me do a few different NSFW panels, I was ecstatic. They are SO good at what they do, they pulled it off so fucking well, and I'm so happy I got to help and express my passion for everything NSFW and art!
That being said... yeah, I've seen and been through some shit, just like everybody. I've had to deal with situations this year, where if I didn't fight back in my own way, I would be miserable, and go back to the old shitty habits that I have been fighting to this day. I wasn't going to let them get into my head. I'm still learning, but I feel so much stronger now with this community that has helped build me up. I just want to say thank you. <3
Now for the future! Other then trying to improve my art and learn more, I am also going to be putting myself out there in other ways too! First, I used to sing in a few bands a few years ago, and it made me so happy. I have also just always been very shy and anxious, which is why it was a bit tough. Now I feel a bit more confident, and I've been practicing again, I wanted to make a vocal reel for my singing, and collab on some music projects! for me personally, this is a big step, it makes my anxiety go CRAZY, but I feel like if I sit here any longer just wondering, it's just going to eat at me! This year I want to really go out of my comfort zones and try my best in all the endeavors!
I also want to actually not only practice animation, but actually release some animations this year! So look out for that! I'll be trying my best!
I also want to make my own doujin! I want to put this all out there, so I can stay motivated and stick to these plans! and you can all hold me responsible!
Lets not forget, NEWGROUNDS WINTER FESTIVAL, which is in LESS THEN A MONTH! I'll be doing some amazing panels with some amazing artists, I don't want to spoil too much yet but MAN is it gonna be lit, I can't wait!!
Too a new, amazing year full of growth to everyone on Newgrounds! <3
